So much to say......




With the 'old time' friends (:


Christmas!


Sleepovers!


With J!


It feels great to see friends that you haven been seeing for like 2 years? (:
They're still as funny as ever, with a lil bit of beng-ness in them... geeeees (:


Good morning!
Turning in now bye! xoxo

Isn't this sweet (:

Great! Everything has been planned nicely, everyone's so excited about it....... and ended up screwed! fuck?

Now, i think i took the wrong module for dance.. 11B is for y2 i think, BUT FUCKING 1B IS FULLLLLLLLL!

FORECASTING!!!!!!! SAS FASHION!!!!!!! ALL FUCKING FULL NOW!?

and my SAS DANCE is fucking clash with my fucking time table!

And cool, 3 strg days of morning classes which i can barely wake up last sem when it's only just 1 day? Alright, i need a baby now to wake me up ): hurrrrrrrrrrrrrr

And now i got a sat class too ): OH MY GOOODNESSSSSSSSSS!

My next semester is kinda screwed!!!!!!! No not kinda, but SCREWED!!!!

Okay nvm, forget it!!!!!! Done! I'm heading back to sleep now! At V place now, cycling later! (:

Morning people! (:

K fine, so be it... Bye!



And Merry Christmas to all! (:

Yesterday seems like a dream to me. Maybe to you it may be just a moment of missing someone but to me, its more than that.
I thought after so many days i can be by myself but after yesterday, idk how i should feel.
Upon looking at .... post, i knew all these will be gone again.....
I told myself not to look at it, but blame my hand.
Ain't we having fun yesterday even tho it's just webcaming, but....... ya there's always a 'but' in everything.



But....

Last minute KBox


Before i went kl, had a kbox session with them (:

Had dinner with Gen first at Suki Sushi











Then met up with the usual for supper and last minute kbox! (:










She's wearing short pants inside... so yeah (:

































Sang till morning and home (:



I'm being random,

I miss the curry rice there....



Anybody wanna eat with me????? (:



Had a ...... conversation with my mum today


My mum: Why this few weekends so guai stay home and sleep, thought you always sleep at your friend's place?

Me: Like that not good meh..

My mum: Ya loh, but very surprised to see you at your bed this morning mah..

Me: Haiya...... smile smile and walk off -.-






Yeah, if only we can bring back time...
Everything start with a 'If only'
Who's gonna make the 'If' happen?
If only.......

Two Is Better Than One









Another prawning thing on a Sat :D
Update again (: Good morning (:

This is the song that we both knew.........
You're the one listening to it the other time, it's my turn now Ling.





You know what, i think it's really my fault to turn this relationship into this situation. Our love can be stronger than anything if i'm really more understanding and do what i'm suppose to do. I guess i can only blame myself for not loving you as much as what i can. Now, only she can give you love, she touched your heart. It's not me anymore, how am i suppose to touch your heart again. I still remember how i cry kissing just your hand that day. From that day onwards, i know you won't be mine anymore, the hand i'm kissing, i won't be holding on to it anymore.
Even when you told me those are bruises, i got to take it as that even if i know it's not. How can a person who love you so much for these 2 year bear all this. Only you can see how badly i cry but, i know i'm not going to do it anymore.

I really don't wanna know what's going on between you and her anymore. Idk who post the 4th party thing but friends, pls don tell me anything that i'm suppose to know now. I'm seriously done with all these thing. I need a break........
Tho i'm appearing strong enough to bear all the things but i need a break now........ I seriously need 1, because until now, i still can't believe the one that i'm loving for 2 years would do this to me )':

Our love just ended because it's not strong enough. But you never know how much i love you. I love you more than anything but you never know. You're the one that thinks our love is not strong enough but did you spare a thought for me? You never know how much i'm giving you because i never had a chance to do so. I'm the one that you choose to hurt, yet i'm still feeling sorry for all the opinions on you.
You never know how much i plan for us even after your ORD. I wanna travel with you, i wanna go camping with you again. I wanna do so much stuff but just one sentence, our love is not strong enough.......
How and what can i feel when i hear this from you.. I'm just a failure being your girl.
When you told me ' i wasn't that bad at all'. My heart totally break from pieces to smaller pieces. Are you really my love one? Are you really the one that stay with me thru out this 2 years? Why is it that you'll only hear what others say and not what your love one say. Ya, maybe until now, to you i'm still the playful one so you think you wasn't that bad at all.......

No one will be there for you to wake her up like hell like that. I still remember how you wake me up for school yet i still didn't turn up for it. Yeah, isn't it irritating like how you wake me up again and again and i'm still sleeping soundly beside you (: No one is gonna talk to you in our language ever again....... oku mu? (: You would even pacify me to go eat kuishinbo with you even if i don really want do. You said " sorrnu ah ni, faster come oku, we eat together".

Who's gonna force you to pluck your armpit hair now..... Who's gonna help you dig dig ear now....... Who's gonna watch tv with you now...... Who's gonna fold your army clothes now? Mamu mu? Who's gonna accompany you to buy tidbits now........ Who's gonna eat fried fish soup and ban mian with you now........... Who's gonna do all this with you now........







Everything's gonna be black and white now...........

It really hurts me to see you tear, what about you?

你為什麼說謊

This wouldn't happen if i'm more understanding, this wouldn't happen if i love you more and love you in a correct way.
This wouldn't happen if our love are stronger..
But it had already happen....
Idk how it happen when i'm giving you so much love.. did i love you in a wrong way? did i not give you love? did i not push myself?
I did everything that i could........
Our love can never be stronger if you ain't giving me any chance... ask yourself that, did you ever give me another chance to prove that our love is still there?
You just assume everything before giving me a death card, how am i suppose to prove myself, prove to you, that there's still love...........





This is what i call, love......






p.s no matter what, i still hope you'll believe me and close your ear about what you heard. It's really unfair to me when you din't even find out the truth about it. How do you expect me to accept it? At least, i found out the truth from you, instead of listening to what others say about it.

For myself (:


When i'm on my way home, i keep smiling at our past. Not because it's funny, but it's really heartwarming. Yeah, though we often had arguments, but after each arguments, we understand each other more. We became more loving.. we would pacify each other with our weird language (: i don't even know how we came up with those languages.
Or we would just randomly say something funny with that language. 'kunting kunting nuni nuni'?

Sleeping with the tv on, waking up to see your bom bom face, smelling each other breath. awww -.-
It's really nice to see your love one sleeping beside you, his face will be the first thing you see when you wake up..
Cooking noodle, frying pancakes, making a mess in the kitchen.. Arguing about who's gonna wash the pots...
Running from the kitchen to the room, or from your house downstairs to your door. Trying to leave me behind cos i'm afraid of the dark and being alone. asshole!
Playing and feeding hammie (: though i don dare to touch them but at least i fed him okay (:
See you playing with your pillow case just irritates me! Because you only wan your pillow case and not me anymore! tsk!
Scissors paper stone to see who will off the lights and turn down the volume of the tv (: But i always win! (:
Argue about who's sleeping which side and all...
Go round searching for best food at tpy central... Accompany me to wait for my milk tea at Koi when the queue is always that long...
Too much to say but it'll always be inside me...


Each relationship has its own memories, which can never be erase. No matter how the other party hurt you, it will always be kept inside the heart.
Idk but thinking back of our past, i wouldn't cry but smile. Not trying to deceive myself or like gain sympathy or being fake. But that's the fact, i really did smile. Those are happy memories, why cry?
I will only cry when you're gone, and yeah, i'm done with all the cryings.
It has become a fact that you're gone, so i have to accept no matter what. I don care how many lies you told me, or how you hurt me. I told myself, i will only remember the happy moments. I hope i can do it tho ;) gees
Yeah, and after thinking for so much, we really do have lots and lots of happy moments (: all these are enough.

They said I'm less cheerful now.. yes, i know. I hardly play around or being that talkative anymore. But takes time i guess? (:





Just like this picture, i can only imagine that you're there......

I wonder how it feels like to be the 3rd. Ain't she shameful at all?

14 Dec

Did manicure at paragon with Van (:



Sushi Tei for lunch (:





Big O for dessert???? (:








Big O Cheesecake, i like it (:


The Mud Pie (:



Then off to work (:




13 Dec

Accompany Gen to perm her hair (:
Waited for quite long, so we can only camwhore :D










































Finally done (:


Then Pasta Mania for dinner (:




Shopping again (:





Frolick (:






Coffee club with Gen Van Zhi and Ray (:






That's all (: Still got loads more to update "/

Nights xoxo






I'm tired of all the nonsense, it's really time to start anew....